Drifting Away Lyrics
I still remember
the days we shared together
chatting happily, and laughing loud
but there's something new about you
I always thought that we'd stay the same
Great friends till the very end
But I turned my back and then
You were someone new
Chorus:
Boy, boy, I loved you
Yes I loved you till you changed so
Where's the past?
Where are those days where we'd talk so long
Why did time have to move along
Now time speeds by
No time to say hi
You drift away from me
While I sigh
But I want you near boy
Come back please
My life is dull, no meaning at all
What am I to you
Just some toy that has been overused?
Growing more distant from me
Stuck in your punk rock identity
Boy, boy, I loved you
Yes I loved you till you changed so
Where's the past?
Where are those days where we'd talk so long
Why did time, have to move along
I hope you'll change back for me with this song
The Story Behind "Drifting Away"
It was 6:30 pm, a school night. Sweat from the humidity in the air drizzled down my face as I wiped them away with my sweater. He was standing in front of me, holding my phone. I had taken out my phone to check the time, but he grabbed it out of my hand when I did so. I stood there, stupidly, while he drilled down onto my phone with his fingers. I didn't know what he was doing but boy was I happy that I was able to see him for the first time in months.
The boy that I'm talking about is Leon Maximus. He is the definition of cute. And the only boys I think are cute are very fob. He has the perfect fob haircut that makes him a boy any girl would fall to her knees for. When I first met him, he was shorter than me by about 3 inches, but I guess that's expected because he one grade lower than me.
I first met him at an outside school orchestra program. He was the only boy in the first violins so our conductor picked on him a lot. He always seemed so cute and innocent even though he was always picked on. Sometimes when we had sectionals we'd share a stand together even though we weren't stand partners. He was really nice and I enjoyed talking to him. This all happened when I was in 7th grade and he was in 6th.
I didn't get to see him often but once in awhile I'd see him coming out of his 6th grade orchestra sectionals while I'd be ending my intermediate 7th and 8th grade combined orchestra rehearsal. There was this other boy in his orchestra I knew. His name: Oakley Porsche. He was really close to Leon and I knew him fairly well too. One day I meet up with them while I was ending and they were beginning rehearsal. Oakley came up to me and said, "Leon likes you!" I laughed while Leon grabbed Oakley and started pulling him away from me to prevent him from saying anything else. At that time, I didn't think of him more than a cute innocent boy.
When the next year arrived we were finally in the same orchestra. I was not able to be at school for the first couple of days because I was on a trip in the mainland. Everyone sat down quickly and I didn't know where to sit. Oddly enough, there was a seat right next to Leon and he asked me to sit by him. Of course I sat down very willingly. For about a month, we were able to sit next to each other and talk during rehearsals even though we weren't supposed to. Those times seemed to have gone by so quickly because everyday I'd look forward to sitting and chatting with him and after rehearsal I'd be very happy because I had a good time with him. However, he was very different from who he was one year ago. He had lost his past innocence I had seen in him. By then he was more into guitar and punk rock music.
That year went by quickly and before I knew it, I was in high school. I was back to rarely seeing him. I really missed talking to him. About half a year passed. I was sitting in the orchestra room with not many others surrounding me. I was so surprised when he sat down next to me. It sort of startled me as well because he came out of nowhere. That was the first time we had talked for so long. It seemed like we had been apart forever. His attitude had changed a lot as well. At this time, he had made his punk rock identity more evident. I no longer knew him as the Leon I used to know. He was someone totally different. Even so, I began to get the idea that I really liked him.
I've known him for so long, but have only recently realized that I like him. Getting back to that humid day, Leon was doing something with my phone. I waited for him to stop tapping away on my phone and when he did I saw the he had put his cell phone number in my phonebook. I was so surprised and uncomfortable. It felt so weird to have the phone number of the guy I liked in my phonebook. Was this really happening? I blinked several times to see if he actually had given me his number, but no, it was not a dream. I felt a surge of excitement. After that night, I never called him. I was too nervous and afraid to. He didn't call me either, because I didn't have a chance to tell him my phone number. I always regretted that.
Now it's nearing the end of my freshmen year. High school has matured me and I have changed a lot, but so has he. I had given the idea of liking him serious thought. I knew that I liked him for a long time. Actually I probably liked him since I was in 7th grade. Time however has drifted us father apart. He's not the sweet innocent boy I once knew. When he greets me he says, "Hi Freak." Why did I still like him? I did not know. But I did know that his attitude was not the least bit appealing to me. Last week I've finally given up on him. My days are back to boring and uneventful. I always think that if he hadn't changed, or changed back, maybe I could be with him. Then I wouldn't have to live my days without anything to look forward to.
Friday, May 16, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Sonnet
Revised:
Remembering You
A distant memory, that's all it is
Wishing past would never change to present
Warmth still lies on my fingertips, it's his
No tomorrow, time together has left
If only his breathless smile would shine
My regrets on the past would disappear
Falling into his arms, our hearts combined
Looking into his eyes, I'd shed a tear
We would hold hands together forever
Try to escape though we knew it couldn't be
Then by parents our last threads were severed
Though over I felt not happy nor free
Because that young boy had stolen my heart
Love lingers but we're forever apart
Analysis
"Remembering You" is a simple sonnet about two lovers who could not live their lives together because of their parents. This is kind of like a Romeo and Juliet story but much sadder because they do not die after they separate. They must live the rest of their lives in misery wishing that they could see their lover.
I originally made this story because recently there have been many relationship crises among my friends and I wanted to write something about this matter. I wanted to make others understand how hard their life must be now that they have been forever separated. I thought that a forbidden love sonnet would be best suited for their hardships. A love relationship is more serious than relationships that teens have, but a love relationship would be easier to express. My overall point of this sonnet was to encourage others to console their friends when they are going through this type of hardship and be there for them.
In the first stanza I introduce the story of the forbidden lovers. I stated, "A distant memory, that's all it is" to show that something has happened but now it is over. I also introduce a boy who has given me warmth and that his warmth still lingers on me. The reason why I left everything mysterious in the first stanza was to draw readers in and wonder what this sonnet is about. This stanza symbolizes how time goes by whilst locking memories into your mind. In a way, this sonnet could branch in many different ways. That's what makes it mysterious and draws the reader in.
The second stanza then tells us that this sonnet is about a forbidden love. It says that the boy she loved doesn't smile anymore meaning he is sad or depressed. You may also interpret it as him now just not being seen by her at all. Either one is sad and would fit for the sonnet. She has regrets on their past love because they will never be able to see each other happy again. They will both live in despair hopelessly. The third line says that their love drove each other insane. This expresses that when you're in love you do crazy things and when you are in a forbidden love you'll do crazy things and become crazy yourself. Meaning you aren't only crazy for that short time while being in love, you will be insane for the rest of you lives. This line symbolizes that you would be scared by a forbidden love and this scar would be marked by your insanity. Then the last line stats that nobody approves of our love and tells the reader that their love is forbidden. Then by the end of this stanza you understand what this story is about.
The third and fourth stanzas express feelings of their love more. Holding hands can be used a metaphor meaning that they tried to stay together. They did their best to stay together but both of them knew that their relationship would have to come to an end. In the second when I said they were trying to escape they were actually trying to escape from hatred and unhappiness. By being together they would have done this but it wasn't meant to be. In the third line their parents finally severed their last threads. This means that both sides of the family don't want those two together. It suggests that the families have some conflict between each other like the story of Romeo and Juliet. The phrase last threads symbolizes the little thread that bound their hearts together. It is only a thread because their love had been bashed and criticized already that nothing is left but a thin thread. Then we have already established that this love must have been very painful and might have been easier and better if they just separated. I added the fourth line to the third stanza to introduce the last stanza. It lets others know that even if they are no longer bound to each other, they still wouldn't be free or happy because they still love each other very much. They will never be able to escape their past because of the love that still lingers.
Renee Char
4/4/08
English
Sonnet
A distant memory, that's all it is
I only wish the past was still present
Warmth still lies on my fingertips, it's his
It's something I can't escape, my torment
If only I could see him smile again
My regrets on the past would disappear
The grim love between just made us insane
All against us and everything to fear
We would hold hands together forever
Try to escape though we knew it couldn't be
Then by parents our last threads were severed
Though over I felt not happy nor free
Because that young boy had stolen my heart
Love lingers but we're forever apart
Analysis
This sonnet is a simple story about two lovers who could not live their lives together because of their parents. This is kind of like a Romeo and Juliet story but much sadder because they do not die after they separate. Then they must live the rest of their lives in misery wishing that they could see their lover.
I originally made this story because recently there have been many relationship crises among my friends and I wanted to write something about this matter. I wanted to try making others understand how hard their life must be now that you have been forever separated. I thought that a forbidden love sonnet would be best suited for their hardships. It is a bit more serious that my friend's relationships but a love relationship is the easiest to portray. My overall point of this sonnet was to encourage others to console their friends when they are going through this type of hardships and be there for them.
In the first stanza I introduce the story of the forbidden lovers. I state that everything was in the past already and that I miss the past. I also introduce a boy who has given me warmth and this warmth that still lingers on me torments me. The reason why I left everything mysterious in the first stanza was to draw readers in and wonder what this sonnet is about. This stanza symbolizes how we are tortured by what is forever in the past and will never be the future. In a way, this sonnet could branch in many different ways. That's what makes it mysterious and draws the reader in.
The second stanza then tells us that this sonnet is about a forbidden love. It says that the boy she loved doesn't smile anymore meaning he is sad or depressed. You may also interpret it as him now just not being seen by her at all. Either one is sad and would fit for the sonnet. She has regrets on their past love because they will never be able to see each other happy again. They will both live in despair hopelessly. The third line says that their love drove each other insane. This expresses that when you're in love you do crazy things and when you are in a forbidden love you'll do crazy things and become crazy yourself. Meaning you aren't only crazy for that short time while being in love, you will be insane for the rest of you lives. This line symbolizes that you would be scared by a forbidden love and this scar would be marked by your insanity. Then the last line stats that nobody approves of our love and tells the reader that their love is forbidden. Then by the end of this stanza you understand what this story is about.
The third and fourth stanzas express feelings of their love more. Holding hands can be used a metaphor meaning that they tried to stay together. They did their best to stay together but both of them knew that their relationship would have to come to an end. In the second when I said they were trying to escape they were actually trying to escape from hatred and unhappiness. By being together they would have done this but it wasn't meant to be. In the third line their parents finally severed their last threads. This means that both sides of the family don't want those two together. It suggests that the families have some conflict between each other like the story of Romeo and Juliet. The phrase last threads symbolizes the little thread that bound their hearts together. It is only a thread because their love had been bashed and criticized already that nothing is left but a thin thread. Then we have already established that this love must have been very painful and might have been easier and better if they just separated. I added the fourth line to the third stanza to introduce the last stanza. It lets others know that even if they are no longer bound to each other, they still wouldn't be free or happy because they still love each other very much. They will never be able to escape their past because of the love that still lingers.
Remembering You
A distant memory, that's all it is
Wishing past would never change to present
Warmth still lies on my fingertips, it's his
No tomorrow, time together has left
If only his breathless smile would shine
My regrets on the past would disappear
Falling into his arms, our hearts combined
Looking into his eyes, I'd shed a tear
We would hold hands together forever
Try to escape though we knew it couldn't be
Then by parents our last threads were severed
Though over I felt not happy nor free
Because that young boy had stolen my heart
Love lingers but we're forever apart
Analysis
"Remembering You" is a simple sonnet about two lovers who could not live their lives together because of their parents. This is kind of like a Romeo and Juliet story but much sadder because they do not die after they separate. They must live the rest of their lives in misery wishing that they could see their lover.
I originally made this story because recently there have been many relationship crises among my friends and I wanted to write something about this matter. I wanted to make others understand how hard their life must be now that they have been forever separated. I thought that a forbidden love sonnet would be best suited for their hardships. A love relationship is more serious than relationships that teens have, but a love relationship would be easier to express. My overall point of this sonnet was to encourage others to console their friends when they are going through this type of hardship and be there for them.
In the first stanza I introduce the story of the forbidden lovers. I stated, "A distant memory, that's all it is" to show that something has happened but now it is over. I also introduce a boy who has given me warmth and that his warmth still lingers on me. The reason why I left everything mysterious in the first stanza was to draw readers in and wonder what this sonnet is about. This stanza symbolizes how time goes by whilst locking memories into your mind. In a way, this sonnet could branch in many different ways. That's what makes it mysterious and draws the reader in.
The second stanza then tells us that this sonnet is about a forbidden love. It says that the boy she loved doesn't smile anymore meaning he is sad or depressed. You may also interpret it as him now just not being seen by her at all. Either one is sad and would fit for the sonnet. She has regrets on their past love because they will never be able to see each other happy again. They will both live in despair hopelessly. The third line says that their love drove each other insane. This expresses that when you're in love you do crazy things and when you are in a forbidden love you'll do crazy things and become crazy yourself. Meaning you aren't only crazy for that short time while being in love, you will be insane for the rest of you lives. This line symbolizes that you would be scared by a forbidden love and this scar would be marked by your insanity. Then the last line stats that nobody approves of our love and tells the reader that their love is forbidden. Then by the end of this stanza you understand what this story is about.
The third and fourth stanzas express feelings of their love more. Holding hands can be used a metaphor meaning that they tried to stay together. They did their best to stay together but both of them knew that their relationship would have to come to an end. In the second when I said they were trying to escape they were actually trying to escape from hatred and unhappiness. By being together they would have done this but it wasn't meant to be. In the third line their parents finally severed their last threads. This means that both sides of the family don't want those two together. It suggests that the families have some conflict between each other like the story of Romeo and Juliet. The phrase last threads symbolizes the little thread that bound their hearts together. It is only a thread because their love had been bashed and criticized already that nothing is left but a thin thread. Then we have already established that this love must have been very painful and might have been easier and better if they just separated. I added the fourth line to the third stanza to introduce the last stanza. It lets others know that even if they are no longer bound to each other, they still wouldn't be free or happy because they still love each other very much. They will never be able to escape their past because of the love that still lingers.
Renee Char
4/4/08
English
Sonnet
A distant memory, that's all it is
I only wish the past was still present
Warmth still lies on my fingertips, it's his
It's something I can't escape, my torment
If only I could see him smile again
My regrets on the past would disappear
The grim love between just made us insane
All against us and everything to fear
We would hold hands together forever
Try to escape though we knew it couldn't be
Then by parents our last threads were severed
Though over I felt not happy nor free
Because that young boy had stolen my heart
Love lingers but we're forever apart
Analysis
This sonnet is a simple story about two lovers who could not live their lives together because of their parents. This is kind of like a Romeo and Juliet story but much sadder because they do not die after they separate. Then they must live the rest of their lives in misery wishing that they could see their lover.
I originally made this story because recently there have been many relationship crises among my friends and I wanted to write something about this matter. I wanted to try making others understand how hard their life must be now that you have been forever separated. I thought that a forbidden love sonnet would be best suited for their hardships. It is a bit more serious that my friend's relationships but a love relationship is the easiest to portray. My overall point of this sonnet was to encourage others to console their friends when they are going through this type of hardships and be there for them.
In the first stanza I introduce the story of the forbidden lovers. I state that everything was in the past already and that I miss the past. I also introduce a boy who has given me warmth and this warmth that still lingers on me torments me. The reason why I left everything mysterious in the first stanza was to draw readers in and wonder what this sonnet is about. This stanza symbolizes how we are tortured by what is forever in the past and will never be the future. In a way, this sonnet could branch in many different ways. That's what makes it mysterious and draws the reader in.
The second stanza then tells us that this sonnet is about a forbidden love. It says that the boy she loved doesn't smile anymore meaning he is sad or depressed. You may also interpret it as him now just not being seen by her at all. Either one is sad and would fit for the sonnet. She has regrets on their past love because they will never be able to see each other happy again. They will both live in despair hopelessly. The third line says that their love drove each other insane. This expresses that when you're in love you do crazy things and when you are in a forbidden love you'll do crazy things and become crazy yourself. Meaning you aren't only crazy for that short time while being in love, you will be insane for the rest of you lives. This line symbolizes that you would be scared by a forbidden love and this scar would be marked by your insanity. Then the last line stats that nobody approves of our love and tells the reader that their love is forbidden. Then by the end of this stanza you understand what this story is about.
The third and fourth stanzas express feelings of their love more. Holding hands can be used a metaphor meaning that they tried to stay together. They did their best to stay together but both of them knew that their relationship would have to come to an end. In the second when I said they were trying to escape they were actually trying to escape from hatred and unhappiness. By being together they would have done this but it wasn't meant to be. In the third line their parents finally severed their last threads. This means that both sides of the family don't want those two together. It suggests that the families have some conflict between each other like the story of Romeo and Juliet. The phrase last threads symbolizes the little thread that bound their hearts together. It is only a thread because their love had been bashed and criticized already that nothing is left but a thin thread. Then we have already established that this love must have been very painful and might have been easier and better if they just separated. I added the fourth line to the third stanza to introduce the last stanza. It lets others know that even if they are no longer bound to each other, they still wouldn't be free or happy because they still love each other very much. They will never be able to escape their past because of the love that still lingers.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Sonnet
Sonnet
A distant memory, that's all it is
I only wish the past was still present
Warmth still lies on my fingertips, it's his
It's something I can't escape, my torment
If only I could see him smile again
Our past will always come back to haunt us
The grim love between just made us insane
I could only meet him inside the bus
We would hold hands together forever
Try to escape though we knew it couldn't be
Then by parents our last threads were severed
Though over I felt not happy nor free
Because that young boy had stolen my heart
Love lingers but we're forever apart
A distant memory, that's all it is
I only wish the past was still present
Warmth still lies on my fingertips, it's his
It's something I can't escape, my torment
If only I could see him smile again
Our past will always come back to haunt us
The grim love between just made us insane
I could only meet him inside the bus
We would hold hands together forever
Try to escape though we knew it couldn't be
Then by parents our last threads were severed
Though over I felt not happy nor free
Because that young boy had stolen my heart
Love lingers but we're forever apart
Monday, March 3, 2008
Paper 2
Catcher in the Rye Chapter 14 ½
After I slept for a while I woke up and opened a window. The smoke from my cigarette was all over the goddam place. There was no wind though so I went outside for a walk. It was pretty quiet around because it was Sunday and all. Most of the people walking around looked like families going to church.
I was feeling really miserable. I kept thinking about being ripped off by Maurice and Sunny. I thought I was really crazy to have tried to save my 5 bucks. When Maurice got up out of the chair and started walking towards me I was scared to death. I knew what was going to happen but I still couldn't shut up and give him the goddam 5 bucks.
I always get beat up when I stand up for myself. Then I started thinking about that time when Stradlater knocked me to the ground. Boy was I mad. I wanted to knock his face right off. Did he give the time to Jane? I really wanted sink one in his face.
Then I started feeling suicidal again. I knew that I could jump in front of this truck passing by on the road but I didn't do it. If I die I want someone who would cry till their eyes would swell up by my side. Jumping in front of the truck would just make me some poor kid that no one knew; no one important or worth crying over.
Then all of a sudden, I saw her, I saw Jane. She was on the opposite side of the street by the theater. Without thinking I ran across the road to talk to her. As I neared the sidewalk I heard these screeching noises that ripped my eardrums from my ear. A taxi stopped right before nailing my leg. I felt the wind from the car shoot past me and a shiver went down my spine. My whole body shook and fell to the ground. I just sort of sat there for a few seconds until the taxi driver came out of the taxi and asked me if I was all right. I looked at the cab driver and just sort of stared at him. I was still pretty shocked. Then I remembered the reason why I almost got killed and franticly looked for Jane. I looked in the direction of Jane, but it wasn't her. It was some other girl with the same hair color and figure.
I looked back at the cab driver and realized that it was Horwitz. The cab driver I talked to on the way to Ernie's. He looked pretty scared that I wasn't answering him so I said, "I'm all right."
While helping me get up he said, "Hey, I remember you, boy who asked about the ducks right?" I was sort of surprised he still remembered me.
"Yeah that was me." I was kind of afraid of what he'd say next because last time I talked to him about the ducks he got all touchy.
"Well, sorry about blowing up at ya. I was feeling kind of crappy before you came in the cab and got kind of irritated when I couldn't figure out where the ducks went. Why do ya care anyway?" Hah, "kind of?" Now that's an understatement. But I have to say, he said it real nice and all.
"I just want to know." I really didn't know why I cared so much. I just had to know.
"Well ya figure the ducks go to some other lagoon to go swim around so they probably fly there. They all gotta take off and find some other home at some point."
"Thank you sir." He finally gave me an answer that made some sense.
He started getting back into his taxi and grinned, "See ya kid."
That was the last time I saw him. He drove like a mad man even though he didn't have any customers in the back.
I walked back to my room and lay on the bed for a while. I started smoking again since the air was too clean. Then I closed my eyes went to sleep. I couldn't get the ducks out of my mind so I had the weirdest dream about talking ducks with automatics shooting all the fish in the lake and eating them. I swear I'm crazy.
Analysis
This chapter I created fits between chapter 14 and 15. My intention of this chapter was to point out things about Holden's character and talk about the ducks.
I talked about Holden not giving Maurice the extra 5 dollars. I wanted to point out that Holden stands up for himself and what he believes is right. Even though he seemed like he was being stupid not giving Maurice the 5 dollars it also shows that Holden has a lot of courage and pride.
Then I flashed back to the fight with Stradlater and Holden over Jane. I wanted to bring this event back up because I mention Jane later in the chapter. This incident also shows that Holden is brave and will do what he thinks he should do. He also doesn't think much about what he's doing. When he sees Jane he starts running across the street to talk to her but doesn't think about the incoming traffic. I wanted to show that Holden doesn't think about his actions but does what he feels like doing at that moment.
Jane is mentioned in this chapter because when Holden is feeling miserable he usually thinks about people that care about him. When Holden felt sad and depressed he thought about Allie. When Maurice wounded him he thought about Jane.
I think that the ducks represent people like Holden who don't have a real home and travel from place to place. They can't stay in one place because they are forced out. In Holden case he's kicked out of school, and in the ducks case, the water they live on freeze in the winter. I think that the reason why Holden wanted know where the ducks go is because he really wants to know where he should go now that he's been kicked out of school.
I end the chapter with an unusual dream because I think that Holden's imagination is really funny and crazy. I wanted to make this more apparent to readers.
After I slept for a while I woke up and opened a window. The smoke from my cigarette was all over the goddam place. There was no wind though so I went outside for a walk. It was pretty quiet around because it was Sunday and all. Most of the people walking around looked like families going to church.
I was feeling really miserable. I kept thinking about being ripped off by Maurice and Sunny. I thought I was really crazy to have tried to save my 5 bucks. When Maurice got up out of the chair and started walking towards me I was scared to death. I knew what was going to happen but I still couldn't shut up and give him the goddam 5 bucks.
I always get beat up when I stand up for myself. Then I started thinking about that time when Stradlater knocked me to the ground. Boy was I mad. I wanted to knock his face right off. Did he give the time to Jane? I really wanted sink one in his face.
Then I started feeling suicidal again. I knew that I could jump in front of this truck passing by on the road but I didn't do it. If I die I want someone who would cry till their eyes would swell up by my side. Jumping in front of the truck would just make me some poor kid that no one knew; no one important or worth crying over.
Then all of a sudden, I saw her, I saw Jane. She was on the opposite side of the street by the theater. Without thinking I ran across the road to talk to her. As I neared the sidewalk I heard these screeching noises that ripped my eardrums from my ear. A taxi stopped right before nailing my leg. I felt the wind from the car shoot past me and a shiver went down my spine. My whole body shook and fell to the ground. I just sort of sat there for a few seconds until the taxi driver came out of the taxi and asked me if I was all right. I looked at the cab driver and just sort of stared at him. I was still pretty shocked. Then I remembered the reason why I almost got killed and franticly looked for Jane. I looked in the direction of Jane, but it wasn't her. It was some other girl with the same hair color and figure.
I looked back at the cab driver and realized that it was Horwitz. The cab driver I talked to on the way to Ernie's. He looked pretty scared that I wasn't answering him so I said, "I'm all right."
While helping me get up he said, "Hey, I remember you, boy who asked about the ducks right?" I was sort of surprised he still remembered me.
"Yeah that was me." I was kind of afraid of what he'd say next because last time I talked to him about the ducks he got all touchy.
"Well, sorry about blowing up at ya. I was feeling kind of crappy before you came in the cab and got kind of irritated when I couldn't figure out where the ducks went. Why do ya care anyway?" Hah, "kind of?" Now that's an understatement. But I have to say, he said it real nice and all.
"I just want to know." I really didn't know why I cared so much. I just had to know.
"Well ya figure the ducks go to some other lagoon to go swim around so they probably fly there. They all gotta take off and find some other home at some point."
"Thank you sir." He finally gave me an answer that made some sense.
He started getting back into his taxi and grinned, "See ya kid."
That was the last time I saw him. He drove like a mad man even though he didn't have any customers in the back.
I walked back to my room and lay on the bed for a while. I started smoking again since the air was too clean. Then I closed my eyes went to sleep. I couldn't get the ducks out of my mind so I had the weirdest dream about talking ducks with automatics shooting all the fish in the lake and eating them. I swear I'm crazy.
Analysis
This chapter I created fits between chapter 14 and 15. My intention of this chapter was to point out things about Holden's character and talk about the ducks.
I talked about Holden not giving Maurice the extra 5 dollars. I wanted to point out that Holden stands up for himself and what he believes is right. Even though he seemed like he was being stupid not giving Maurice the 5 dollars it also shows that Holden has a lot of courage and pride.
Then I flashed back to the fight with Stradlater and Holden over Jane. I wanted to bring this event back up because I mention Jane later in the chapter. This incident also shows that Holden is brave and will do what he thinks he should do. He also doesn't think much about what he's doing. When he sees Jane he starts running across the street to talk to her but doesn't think about the incoming traffic. I wanted to show that Holden doesn't think about his actions but does what he feels like doing at that moment.
Jane is mentioned in this chapter because when Holden is feeling miserable he usually thinks about people that care about him. When Holden felt sad and depressed he thought about Allie. When Maurice wounded him he thought about Jane.
I think that the ducks represent people like Holden who don't have a real home and travel from place to place. They can't stay in one place because they are forced out. In Holden case he's kicked out of school, and in the ducks case, the water they live on freeze in the winter. I think that the reason why Holden wanted know where the ducks go is because he really wants to know where he should go now that he's been kicked out of school.
I end the chapter with an unusual dream because I think that Holden's imagination is really funny and crazy. I wanted to make this more apparent to readers.
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